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well not technically but yea im switching to blogspot. =)
dun really like everyone on my list to get notified everytime i post smt.
so yeah. au revoir!

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exams are finally over and it’s such a relief!
din know how i managed to get through all four papers tho.
now i dun have to deal with those subs ever again.
well if i pass that is. *crossing fingers*
truth to be told, i haven been really focusing on my studies.
been slacking in attendance especially.
what’s wrong? blehhh into 2nd year nex year cannot afford these anymore la.

but anyways.. studies aside. it’s holidays!
three months of hols to spare cant wait for jan, cant wait to meet up with old frens!
cant wait to go home. cant wait for cny ^^
but at the mean time, gonna try hard to look for more job to fill my time.
with the bad economy now tho, it might not be easy.
praying hard i’ll find a good one with good pay =p
if possible with airconditioning. haha
you know how summer can be :s

recently have been thinking about something.
a friend or a foe?
you know how sometimes you jus dunno how to judge a person when you see their two sides?
is the good side more dominant than the bad?
well of course everyone has their downside.
maybe it’s advisable to look at the angelic part and ignore that minute part of the dark side?
because that’s what friends do. they cheer u on your strength and do not condemn your weaknesses.
everyone is facing a problem of their own.
well what you can do is lend a shoulder and be a friend.
as long as you got nothing to lose.

下雨天了怎么办
Xia yu tian le zen me ban
It’s a rainy day, what should I do
我好想你
Wo hao xiang ni
I miss you so much
不敢打给你
Bu gan da gei ni
I dare not call you
我找不到原因
Wo zhao bu dao yuan yin
I can’t find a reason to
为什么失眠的声音
Wei shen me shi mian de sheng yin
Why has the sound of insomnia
变得好熟悉
Bian de hao shou xi
Become so familiar
沉默的场景
Chen mo de chang jing
The silent scene
做你的代替
Zuo ni de dai ti
Has replaced you
陪我等雨停
Pei wo deng yu ting
Waiting with me till the rain stops

期待让人越来越沉溺
Qi dai rang ren yue lai yue chen ni
Anticipation makes people more and more indulgent
谁和我一样
Shei he wo yi yang
Who is the same as me
等不到他的谁
Deng bu dao ta de shei
Still waiting for their someone
爱上你我总在学会
Ai shang ni wo zong zai xue hui
When I fell in love with you I learned
寂寞的滋味
Ji mo de zi wei
The taste of loneliness
一个人撑伞
yi ge ren cheng san
Holding an umbrella by myself
一个人擦泪
Yi ge ren ca lei
Wiping away tears by myself
一个人好累
Yi ge ren hao lei
I am tired by myself

Chorus:

怎样的雨
Zen yang de yu
What kind of rain
怎样的夜
Zen yang de ye
What kind of a night
怎样的我
Zen yang de wo
What kind of a me
能让你更想念
neng rang ni geng xiang nian
Will allow you to miss me more
雨要多大
Yu yao duo da
How big does the rain have to be
天要多黑
Tian yao duo hei
How dark does the night have to be
才能够有你的体贴
Cai neng gou you ni de ti tie
To make you more thoughtful
其实没有我你分不清那些差别
Qi shi mei you wo ni fen bu chu na xie cha bie
In fact, without me you can’t tell the difference
结局还能多明显
jie ju hai neng duo ming xian
That the conclusion couldn’t be more obvious
别说你会难过
Bie shou ni hui nan guo
Don’t say that you’re able to feel sorry
别说你想改变
Bie shou ni xiang gai bian
Don’t say that you want to change
被爱的人不用道歉
Bei ai de ren bu yong dao qian
The person that is loved need not say sorry

http://au.youtube.com/watch?v=wOZBbIgkG84
great song great lyrics
perfect illustration
got addicted to it
blehh i should be studying la =p

im feeling so sad.
it’s 1.15am and i jus got back not long ago.
and i dun think i can sleep anytime soon.
so many things is going through my mind now.
I’ve been so attached to my job that now not needing to go to work every night kinda strikes a feeling in me that i cant fully describe.
due to some circumstances, the restaurant is “changing hands”.

ever since first sem ended, I’ve been working in the restaurant nearly every night i would say.
except mondays where they are closed.
I’ve been so attached with work that ppl around me associate me with “work” most of the time.
like, whenever i see my frens, first thing they’ll ask is, “going to work tonight?”
so i guess somehow i should feel happy that im now free for the nights.
but no work equals no money.
though there’s still the caffe job, im only working there 2 shifts a week.
enough to cover my rent but there wont be extras.
since exams are in like jus three weeks, maybe it’s a good time after all to take a break from work.
still, there’s no harm in applying for jobs now.

memories from the indian restaurant is gonna make me miss it so so much.
my boss, kanan was really nice and treated me more as a fren rather than an employee.
though there’s like ten years gap between us, it felt like we were only few years apart.
i’ll miss those times when it was quiet we’ll jus chat like frens.
i’ll miss having cheese naans occassionally when i work. and coffees.
i’ll miss ishya (her daughter) bothering me when i work.
i’ll miss ishya. she’s been so generous to me, always offering me food, drinks and things to share. =)
i’ll miss curries to bring home every night.
i’ll always rmb some of the “defining” moments i had there as well.
like, the time i had to disappoint my lifegroup at the very last minute that i cant participate in a mime we’ve practised cos kanan got sick.
or the time a guy came back saying he forgot to leave me a tip when actually he wanted my num but couldnt ask cos he was with her gf before that (well of cos, i din give and he gave up real easily. n i’ve got his tip =p)
or the freaky wednesday incident.
which im certainly glad there wont be anymore of those.

truly, this work has broaden my horizon.
meeting different people, serving different customers.
I’ll always rmb it , my first job here.
unknowingly, i’ve learnt a lot from this experience.
things I was so blur about when i first started.
kanan has taught me as much as she could.
i can even make coffees now. though not an expert.

im jus feeling kinda emo now bout the whole thing.
it was pretty sudden although not completely too.
really gonna miss everything bout it heapssss.
had to spill it all out.

well, every beginning has an end.
and it’s time to move on.
there’ll be other jobs with new experiences waiting for me.
jobs with better pay too hopefully =)

goodbye indian restaurant.
goodbye aroma.

im tired
tired of waiting
waiting for smt that’ll never come
tired of hoping
hoping for smt that’ll never be yours
tired of dreaming
dreams that’ll never come true
tired of procrastinating
back to the past that will always jus be the past
tired of disappointments
that haunts me everytime i start wishing

but they jus wont go away.

oh i loveee the weather now
i wish it’s spring all year round! hehe
flowers are starting to bloom.. =)=)
and one thing i love bout september is my bday! haha
the only day i can feel pampered XD
the only day where my phone has msges coming in all day^^
no more the usual bday cakes from classmates n i miss it
but homemade cake this time is good too
and roti canai supper =)
(tho definitely cannot compare to canai back home)
and on the day itself went to the royal adelaide show
loveed the atmosphere
there’s stalls with food,
ridess, some exhilarating and some mild ones for ppl with fragile heart =p
shows all around like motor stunt demo, wood cutting, magic show, pig race, dogs and cats grooming competition..
showbags of different sort, magazines or confectionaries
wine tasting, food tasting, drinks tasting =)
well din manage to experience any rides
or buy any showbags, amazingly. haha
i was lucky the last day of show falls on my bday
so we’ve got to watch the best fireworks at the end of the show. =)=)
though merely ten minutes or so.. whoa fireworks on my bday!
im lucky =)
thanks to all who remembered my bday and made the effort to msg or even call =)
i feel so blessed! haha.
which is why i love remembering ppl’s bday and wish them. hehe

birthday’s over, no more pampering.
now it’s down to serious stuff..
assignments and examsss and work =l
this hols seriously seriously need to do some catching up. haha

i’ve got my tickets to go home! XD
looking at the itinerary i was dreaming of those days to come already. hehe
so excited =)

freaky wednesday came again this week.
he came back. same time same day same place.
darn.. must i really face him? =l

on birthday
ps : got brand new carpet for my room. no more cold cold floorr
pps : finally got an epilator. XD works amazingly. hehe
ppps : all thanks to sis, peter and john =)=)

got freaked out at work today =l
i’ll never forget how my heart beated faster
and how my face was burning from awkwardness and embarassment.

okay so there was this customer that came with his mum a month or so back
he’s a lil retarded i might say cos he jus stares at you for no reason
and he stutters when he talks.
it’s a pity seeing him. i try not to treat him differently and actually be nicer.
and who knows he came in today. alone.
when he ordered, there was a weirdness in the air.
all he ordered was an entree.
and all the time he’s jus staring at me.
creepy!
his food came and after few minutes he’s up at the counter.
my boss was at the counter and i jus came out from the kitchen.
instead of talking to my boss he waited for me and asked me instead for the bill
i was a lil disturbed then but brushed it off since he’s paying already
which means he will be gone in a minute or two.. so i thought.
took his money and return his change.
instead of turning away and head to the door, he stayed back.=l
and he goes, (stuttering) “the food is delicious”
and we (my boss and i) replied ”oh thank you”
and that’s when it starts getting creepy
“my name is so and so, what’s yours ”
well apparently i was too stunned to even remember what he said his name was. =p
and he reached out his hand to shake (!)
deciding how to reply to him that was i think the longest minute of my life
“er… im jacinta” awkwardly shakes his hand and quickly pushed it away
“so.. where.. do.. you.. stay..”
oh my gosh is he gonna find out where i live and follow me?
i nudged my boss begging for help
seriously in this kinda situation i always find myself lost for the right words.
even my boss was dumbfounded. then she said “oh she jus stays here” lol
my mind was going all hairwired and i was panicked for some reason.
my boss quickly gave me smt to do trying to avoid any other questions from him.
i quickly took the bill to the customer to sign.
when in my heart im crying out for help.
going back i din dare look at him anymore.
then my boss whispered to me ”you better go inside”
so into the kitchen i went and hid myself from the all the awkwardness
i din know what happen out there but he stayed for at least 10 minutes or so.
doing nothing but looking at the fishes in the aquarium.
again and again my boss asked him if he wans smt else n he said
“no i jus wan to look at the fish”
in the kitchen i cant even sit quietly.
keep wandering around looking for things to do while praying that he’ll be gone
and when he left my boss told me that he kept looking back through the front glass doors as he walk pass the restaurant in between looking at his watch
it’s so creepyy
and my boss’ husband kept scaring me that he’s waiting for me out there to follow me on my bus

so that was it my weird experience today
the whole night i couldnt get him off my head.
being in this industry i guess you cant avoid abnormal ppl sometimes.
i guess i should have been more bold and tell him off.
but of course politely since he’s “special”
but still if given a choice i wouldnt wanna go through tonight again.
i jus cant bear to see ppl’s disappointment and thus most of time i chose the easy way out. run.
which isnt exactly gonna make u grow =p
well.. we’ll see how it goes.
tommorrow is a brand new day =)

it’s funny how life is
weirdly funny
no one will ever fully comprehend
no matter how much time has pass
there will still be a longing in your heart
whenever he’s sad
you wan to be there for him
you wan to be able to cheer him up
to pick him up again
no matter what happened in the past
no matter how painful the past has been
what matters is now

it’s funny isnt it
you know the reality in your mind
very clearly
but your heart forbids

you wan to move on
but it cant be done completely
because a part of you is left behind
doesnt matter if the relationship is short or long
a part of you will always be left behind
a lesson of life that you should accept
yes that’s how it is

only for three short weeks
since the last paper on thurs all i’ve been doing is sleep, eat and eat and eat
as if i’m not fat enough =p
when you’re bored that’s the only thing you can do
staying home all day is definitely not an ideal plan for hols
i should go look for more jobs to fill my time!
the prob is where?
i was so bored that i’ve stayed up to watch wimbledon finals =)
its interesting actually
cant bliv i stayed up till 6am to find that federer lost =(
i was hoping for him to win
like the way he play somehow
if only there werent so many unforced errors
but well true to his "gentlemanliness" he said nadal deserved it
how humble =)
he put up a good fight. the score was really close
crossing my fingers that he’ll win next year xD

winter’s finally here and it’s freezing cold
somehow it jus makes you do everything slower. haha
i’m wearing two layers at home and still find it cold
winter’s rain remind me so much of home
it was always pouring end of the year =)

by the way i think i screwed my exams
that’s the result from laziness and last minute preparation
when i say last minute it really is
try reading the whole book a day before exam
never ever do that
seriously should turn over a new leaf
first time into the exam hall was so scary
din even know where it was!
it’s not in the uni it’s somewhere a lil outside the city
reached jus when they started their reading time
i was so blur that i tot they arranged your seats according to names
then when i went to section C i jus realised it’s impossible to find your name!
there were jus too many tables to go through
then it struck me : free seating lol
there werent jus our faculty in the exam hall there’s others as well
when they were annoucing the mistakes for some physics paper
i was like "man, i could be doing that right now"
actually i’m still not 100% sure if i took the right course
i envy those that is in engineering
well Lord please let me pass my subjects!

everyone back home is starting uni now =)
orientation week has past and now it’s the real thing. hehe
all the best to you guys!
i’m sure uni life will be very enjoyable for u all =)

jus got back from camp yesterday.=D
first camp by oxygen which is an international student ministry from my church.
three days two nights at tatachilla camp was really good.
camp site was nice and lovely.
there’s a sports centre too so can play baddy, ping pong, pool n bball.:D
best thing is that they have hot shower! hahaha.
and the food was yummy!
ate so so much there. hehe =p
think i’m gonna gain more kgs now!
can you bliv that i gained 6kg plus already since i got here?
my goodness..

anyways, it was a really good camp.
great experience.
met many new people.
and got closer to the ppl in "magkew" (magill) life group. hehe
well i must say the hundred bucks was really worth it.=)

after the camp, we drove down to a beach nearby.
well it says nude beach on the map but thank goodness there wasnt any nudes there. haha.
when we reach..
my my.. how breath-taking it was!
the wind was so strong and the wave was huge.
and the breeze was jus so refreshing.=)
love the sceneries there.
if there’s a rainbow, it’ll be perfect. hehehe.

uni’s starting next week.
cant bliv two weeks hols is over.
there’s two test on mon and two assignments due soon.:s
and i’m still in my hol mood. bad bad.