jacjac

time seriously fly.
after next week it’s the end of half of first sem.
good thing is there’s two weeks of hols that follows.=)
but… this two weeks is full of class tests.=s
and not forgetting tutorial works every week!
man, the classes go by so fast that it’s hard to catch up.
i’m only grasping the concept in chapter one and they are half the book away already.
seriously need to do lots of catching up during hols.
altho i doubt will be successful. hehe
and i detest information system. haha
so many work.. presentation, assignments, tutorial forum, and worst of all, excel test!
i’m seriously a computer illeterate. lol
have no idea how to use the excel.
i hope i dun fail my excel exam this fri.

after close to three months here i must say..
i still miss kuching! a lot. hehe
miss all the frens back home.
uni life is pretty hard to make many frens as after tutorial many jus rush off to their next class.
but well, did meet a few nice people here.=)
the weather here jus turned really really cold again after ten days heat wave few weeks back which was really really hot then. hehe
the weather here is pretty weird i must say.
but the cold weather is seriously making me feel lazy. hehe.
it’s SO hard to get outta bed every morning.
which explains why i constantly miss my bus and late for classes these few days. hehe

this sun will mark the end of daylight savings.
which means we’ll have an extra hour to sleep this sun. haha
which also means msia and adelaide’s time diff will only be 1.5 hours.
which ALSO means i wont feel so far from msia.=)

by the way, i’ll be keeping my msian num so anyone of you back home wanna contact me, can msg that num.
should be cheaper than contacting my aus num.=)

am i happy with my results?
yea it’s disappointing that i couldn’t get straight A’s like the others
but hey what can i expect?
i’ve gotten what i deserved. i believe.:)
i din finish my paper 2 in both chem and physics.
and i drew the wrong graph for PA.
so yea it’s reasonable.:)
just wanted something better for physics though.
but thank God He gave me an A- in chem even though i still couldn’t memorise ALL the equations well. haha
it’s a miracle.=p

thanks all for putting up with me today
i know all the worried-sick scenes was pretty hard to bear. haha

so am i happy?
well i accept it.xD

at least my maths was still standing strong. hehe
all glory be to God.:)

uni has started and one week has passed!
still pretty new to uni though and cant believe it’s time to get back to studying already.
classes was pretty much a blur cos everything is so new!
so lost in the business terms.=p
it’s definitely a big leap from science stream.
however the maths sub that i chose as my elective turned out to be super the simple.
imagine form 3 maths! oh my..
so lecture was pretty boring. haha.
now wondering if i’ve enrolled in the wrong class.=p

other than uni, i’m slowly getting used to the things here.
the water is drinkable to me now. haha
i still rmb the first time i came here i had a really tough time drinking their water and they actually drink from the tap.
yes ppl here drink straight from the tap.
taking the bus is not so difficult now.
after missing a few buses, i’m much smarter now. haha.
and i actually like sitting in the bus. for some reasons. lol.
however, i still dislike having to walk uphill from the bus stop to home.
and it’s not a short distance.
slowly i’ve also gotten used to manual car.
although it took like a zillion times of the engine dying.:)
which reminds me how much i miss my auto car.
however if given me a choice, i will not drive here.
the speed limit is like 60 in suburbs and 50 in the city.
and i dislike manual. cos i hate engine dying. haha

stpm result is coming out! SOON.
it’s so soon that i’m feeling butterflies in my stomach. lol
it’s not really important anymore but i’m still anxious somehow.
well who wouldnt wanna do well in exams?
but it’s so sad that i cant take the result myself together with the others. sighhh
i wanna be in sch when they annouce it!
part of me cant wait and part of me dont wanna know
well, hopefully they lower the standard so much that everyone’s happy with their result xD

looking back at my past entries has brought back many memories.
form six has indeed gave me a whole new kind of experience.
i still remember how much i dreaded going into form six at first.
"it’s going to be a waste of two years." haha
but now i can say that i dont regret anything.
i’ve known a great bunch of friends whom i’ll never forget.:)
and i’ve become tougher and stronger.

upper six was the hardest to endure.
yes academic wise it’s really tough.
plus i’ve got to live alone back in kuching.
sometimes looking at others having a family physically by their side gave me a pang of jealousy.
however, i’ve grown more mature by it subsconciously.

relationship is another thing i’ve learnt.
it can bring you mega happiness at one time and total despair at another.
love is a funny thing that  no man can truly understand.
there are still many questions in my head but oh wells.
i’ve made many mistakes but sometimes mistakes must be made in order to learn.:)
i thank God anyhow for this oppurtunity once to love and to be loved.

i thank all my frens that had been really supportive of me and were there for me through thick and thin.
if it’s not for them life will be multiple times harder to get by.

moon, it has been really comforting going to you with my heart’s problem. you’ve been nothing but comfort. thanks for sparing your time and had even trusted me with your stories.

kai, altho you’re far, you’ve made the effort to listen to my constant worries and cared. you’ve even cheered me up when i’m down. you know i wouldnt listen but you still continue to persuade me to do the right thing. even if i chose not to listen, u still stood by me.

jennifer, you’re one friend that i can talk to. you listened when i need a listening ear and showed your support in your own way. enjoyed all the fun we had, be it at your place or outside shopping.

betty, it has been really fun studying together at your house. thanks a lot for all the great food and sharing your room for us to sleep.  you’ve been nothing but a great friend.

karen, you’re someone that everyone will adore. happy go lucky and great in handling things. i admire your high spirit. miss karaoke-ing at your place.

siang, you’re the nicest friend i know. you put your friends first in everything and that’s smt i look up to. but dun be too nice sometimes.:)

allan, i’m glad you came along to the trip to kl. you’re cool and i admire your maturity.

melissa, i’ve known you since form one. altho you’re in miri, u still never cease to care and we still can talk like buddies for hours. thanks for everything.

michel, you’ll help me evaluate my problems and give me pros and cons instead of telling what to do. it was fun hanging out with you.

yvonne, you’re one of the first few i know in form six. i’ve learnt from you and u always gave me the right advice at the right time.

lip ming, altho i knew u through ns, it felt like i’ve known you forever. i know i can trust u to comfort me whenever i feel down. thanks for the chats and concerns.

jackie, you’ve made me felt important once. you treated me like a princess once and i’ll always remember that. all the sad memories will fade compared to the good ones.

all the others, yee shian, juok ya, siaw ching, andrew, kathy, andy, charles, chean han, lynn, i’m sorry if i miss out anyone but i’m really thankful i’ve got to know you guys. without all of you my form six life wouldnt have been the same.

last but not least, thank God for never forsaking me even when i turned my back on him.

it’s been a month and i’m missing everyone!
sorry ppl i’ve jus gotten my internet few days ago that’s why haven been keeping in touch with you guys.
well life here is definitely diff from back home. the weather is one of them.=p
it can be really cold sometimes and it’s only summer! it’s gonna be a tough time for me during winter. haha.
my classes wont be starting till next month. so now everyday it’s jus wandering around the house and doing whatever i wan. haha. pretty boring actually. have even watched a number of series and movies.:)
today actually went out "searching" with sis bf. he was planning to bring her to a plain land on the hills overseeing the view of the city for valentines. even brought table and chairs and made his own sushi. so on we go driving on the hill near our place searching. we went so far up and deep inside. on the verge of giving up, *poof* i found a perfect place on the way downhill.xD it was nice with the hills and the scenery of the city. so romantic. man, how i wish i have such romantic bf. haha.
i really miss everyone back home. all of you! keep in touch yea and take care!

Ooh…

Everybody’s got something they had to leave behind

One regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time

There’s no use looking back or wondering (or wondering)

How it could be now or neither been (or neither been)

All this I know but still I can’t find ways to let you go

Chorus

I never had a dream come true

Till that day that I found you

Even though I pretend that I’ve moved on

You’ll always be my baby

I never found the words to say

You’re the one I think about each day

And I know no matter where love takes me to

A part of me will always be with you

Somewhere in my memory I lost all sense of time

And tomorrow can never be

‘Cause yesterday is all that fills my mind

There’s no use looking back or wondering

How it should be now or neither been (or neither been)

Oh this I know but still I can’t find ways to let you go

Chorus

You’ll always be the dream that fills my head

(Yes you will, say you will, you know you will, baby)

You’ll always be the one I know (I’ll never forget)

There’s no use looking back or wondering (or wondering)

Because love is a strange and funny thing

No matter how I try and try

I just can’t say goodbye

No no no no

Chorus

A part of me will always be with you… 

have you ever been cheated by someone you trusted so much?
it’s painful.
it’s like someone stabbed you right at your heart.

why do ppl lie?
how can ppl live with lies everyday?

why are there promises when you’re only gonna break it in the end?
you promise there wont be next time anymore
should i trust you?
being hurt once definitely left a deep cut within

if you wan to continue to lie i cant control you
you’re responsible for your actions
as long as i do my part and doesn’t offend anyone
i’m not guilty to anyone

i believe whatever we do
God sees it and we’ll be made responsible for it

lies cant be hidden forever
the truth will be out sooner or later

lately that song kept coming to me.
haha.
and coincidentally lynn gave me the score last night.
so i’ve got a new piece to play.:D
regretted selling off my piano.
now the nearest i can get a piano is at jackie’s place.
thankfully it’s jus few doors down. thanks yin yin.=)
reminds me how much i miss my piano.
never know the value of smt until you lose it.
anyways, it’s a nice song.:)
go listen if you haven’t.
and go watch secret if you haven’t. haha.
it’s a great movie and definitely worth your time.:)

again tired and exhausted.
will have a great sleep tonight.:D

went to the beach today. yay!
with ah fat, moon and lynn.:)
the time relaxing and enjoying and playing with frens reminded me of smt.
all those troubles in life has caused me to forget to cherish what God has given us.
i’ve forgotten to stop and look at God’s wonderful creation and jus enjoy the beauty of life.
wading the sea, with the soft white sand under my feet, and the gentle breeze caresses my face.. (quote from moon)
it’s really breath-taking and definitely reminded me that there are much better things out there.
i shouldn’t keep focusing on my problems and miss out on the good things in life.
if we keep looking at out struggles, we’ll fail to see the whole picture.
God has a plan and a reason for allowing things to happen.
so let’s take a break from our busy life once in a while and jus enjoy God’s creation.
i guarantee it’ll be satisfying.

a big thank you to moon for bringing us all to the beach.
and for "sharing" his breakfast with me this morning.
it was the first time i tasted his cooking,
and i certainly can say,
it’s not bad at all!haha.
thank you for filling my empty stomach.
you’re my best zi mui.

tired and exhausted.
but i can say today is satisfying.:)

altho failed to study at moon’s place today.
supposingly studying but ended up singing songs.
nice songs.:)
moon’s undeniably talented.
you’ll win your girl’s heart easily one day with that voice. haha.

then bbq at jackie’s place was fun too.
met his aunts and uncles and they were all speaking foochow. mostly.
wished i could have join in.
embarrassing that i’m a foochow but i dunno how to speak.
"hu chew niong meh hiu gong hu chew uwa"
the only phrase i know. lol.
which says foochows dunno how to speak foochow.:p
describe me perfectly.
joanna, you’ve got to help me more.
one day i’ll be better than grace.
and even jackie.:p
the best of the bbq was the lamb chop. yummy yummy.
great job on the marinating, swee hou.
next time we’ll jus go to you instead of spending a "fortune" at ting & ting.
altho they marinate good too.